“Gene” says it started because he wanted to be a veterinarian. So he took a job as a research associate at a vivarium that studied cancer drugs. He was often alone in the lab at night with hundreds or thousands of research animals around him. The monkeys were his favorite, especially the rhesus macaques. He loved to give them treats, play movies and Celine Dion for them. And sometimes he’d lean up against the cages to let his monkey friends groom him. He knew the work would be hard, but he believed his was justified because the primate research helped people in the long run.
In his two years at the lab, Gene radiated a lot of monkeys. He and his colleagues studied the deteriorating effects of radiation and the side effects of experimental cancer drugs seeking FDA approval. Once a monkey became too sick and lethargic, it was Gene’s job to euthanize them. He would hold them as they died and tell them he was sorry.
After one study with a particularly high radiation doses, Gene found himself alone again in a lab late at night, euthanizing more monkeys and thinking to himself, “Those were my friends... Those were my fucking friends.” These words became the screamed lyrics to the unfinished, unpublished song that Gene performs in this episode.
Gene left the job shortly after writing the song, but he still works in medical research. He no longer performs euthanizations.
Producer: Bethany Denton
Editor: Jeff Emtman
Music: The Black Spotand “Gene”
HBM126: Sounding the Deep
HBM125: Deepfaking Nixon
HBM123: Water Witches
HBM122: Should Cows Have Names?
HBM121: True North
HBM120: Own Worst Interest
HBM119: An Episode of Pebbles and Twigs
HBM118: Mountain Seabed
HBM117: Grave Oversight
HBM116: Finest and Most Rotten (Going Forward)
HBM115: Bound in Walton et al.
HBM114: Envisioning AIDS
HBM113: The Last Ones
HBM112: Negative Space
HBM111: Waiting for Earth
HBM110: Big Numbers
HBM109: Untitled Noises of New York (Sound Matters)
HBM108: Witch of Saratoga
HBM107: Carlo Surrenders
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