I WASN’T MYSELF

Has this ever happened to you?  I don't know why I did it, I wasn't myself, I normally would never do that.  Maybe you were right.  I am a big believer in self accountability and not making excuses, but is it possible that much of what goes on down here is influenced by energies, or formless beings.  Even a cold?  I had a cold for 30 days, I never have a cold for 30 days.  I wasn't myself.  Then I remembered what my buddy Big Dan said, "Even colds or flus are an energy gripping onto you."  Makes some sense, because doesn't everything that exists in the universe have to have some kind of energy for it to exist, even a cold.  What is that holds all of this together?  It seems like it's our collective thoughts, or God's thoughts.  What is it that gives meaning to anything?  Our collective thoughts that we believe it to be real.  Is this all an illusion?  Well, I can take away that science shows we are energy in our purist form, and after we die, our energy leaves.  Where does it go?  A lot to think about.  What I did find out is that my cold totally disappeared the very next day after trying something.  How could that be, it lasted for 30 days?  Perhaps even a cold is a form of energy that globs onto us as my friend Dan would say.  Dan will also go on to say things like "That person is controlled by the spirit of arrogance, or the spirit of greed, etc."  He was taught by his native understanding that there is a spirit, or energy, for anything that alters us from being unconditional loving beings.  I can see that making a bit of sense now.  Are we helpless from these energies?  No, far from that.  Do you ever say bless you?  Did you know that was originally said to try to protect people after they sneezed because others feared there was a spirit, or energy, trying to attack or drain someone's body?  If you go back and listen to an interview I did with Debbie Tibbles, she felt there was a really dark energy that took over her sons body when he was dying from cancer.  Is that possible?  I could definitely see that happening, at least some of the time.  Whether it is true or not, I believe it is all part of this process we go through down here and it is not to be feared.  Perhaps it is to be conquered? This week I was going to talk to Mark Rainer through Skype but the recording didn't take very well, the audio was fuzzy.  Mark is from northern England and has a few interesting stories to tell.  Perhaps next week I will figure out how to get the Skype recorder working so we can have a clean interview.