Christina reflects on 1 year of recovery by once again baring her soul to the internet in the form of audio journals. Topics include:
Second chance to start my life again (10:49)
Scared that nothing matters (11:38)
I’m not weak if I don’t do anything (13:58)
Reality, overthinking, and my journey (15:49)
It all comes down to me being high (17:43)
It’s getting harder to be OK (20:02)
Ruining relationships (21:40)
Straight up relapse (23:46)
My definition of hell (25:46)
I’m an aDuLt (27:22)
The playground (30:16)
A good day (33:37)
Canceling out good w/ toxic behavior (38:20)
Target for disappointment (39:46)
Bulimia as the ultimate hobby (41:28)
I’m freaking out right now (42:57)
Taking risks (46:54)
Is long-term recovery possible? (49:32)
Feeling full (53:06)
I don’t want to waste 10 more years on this (56:59)
Thinking about death (57:41)
Accepting just fine (1:00:45)
This cannot continue without repercussions (1:05:12)
Asking for help and acknowledging my accomplishments (1:08:29)
FUTURE XTINA LISTEN TO THIS (1:12:01)
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Credits:
Theme song is Insane OK by The Whines via Free Music Archive
Episode is produced and edited by Christina Jumper
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