This may be why you’re tensing or faking it

Check out Unleashed & all my current offers: https://linktr.ee/sensualpower Yesterday @strawberrysmutcakes and I were filming a module for Unleashed & she brought up wanting to discuss a particular issue that she’s never experienced. We both grew up with narc moms & have dealt with A LOT of spicy time shame & relationship issues as a result. However, I’m the one that wasn’t able to have an O till I was 29. Yep, the woman who was a former SWer, sensual movement teacher, and seemed so adventurous hadn’t ever had one! Every bit of my worth, happiness & decision-making had been determined by my mom. So when I began dating & having sex with partners I thought they would be in charge of making me enjoy it! I would never say no, never tell them if something didn’t feel good & then I’d never feel like I was fully in my body. I would then go so far into my head as I was being encouraged to come that I’d just fake it. At 29 I got my first vibe and finally, it happened but for it to happen I had to tense my whole body. I mean my whole body because that was the only way to stop me from checking out. I spent years doing that and the few times I had Os with partners I had to tense and force it for it to happen. I had no idea that I was just causing more harm to myself because everything was forced and without understanding what I wanted or needed. At first not much happened. I could barely touch myself without hearing this internal voice scream “NO”!!! I went slow and explored my body and pleasure in little bits. I built back to trust and then one magical day it happened... Not only did my body want pleasure again but I was able to totally relax into it! Instead of this short little rush that quickly ended, it felt like a tsunami and like my soul was cracked open. I didn’t even know I could experience that! I’m sharing this because I’m not alone in this and maybe I won’t change your life although I feel like it did mine. But what comes about from exploring totally relaxed and consensual pleasure because you’ve truly connected to your body and self will.