Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond
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I tried to stop vaping yesterday, I finished the book and everything made sense. I didn’t last very long! I’ve been writing it out and it clearly feels very unsafe to stop vaping. The identity is terrified and I felt so unsafe.
Logically I know that vaping cannot make me safe, but it feels like it does, as it’s keeps the identity and separate self alive. It is bad for me and I am bad so… I can only stay alive in that identity. (It doesn’t feel anywhere near as threatening to do the walking/ water/ food side of things)
What is going on here? I want health and I put poison into my body! I, I, I ??
Does it only shift in the subconscious and can nothing change until that happens? Or is that a cop out of me not wanting to take responsibility?
Everything about stopping makes sense, so wtf?/child. It feels so much more than it is, like if I step into this freedom from harm, it’s game over for me, yet it also feels like it’s game over if I don’t stop??? I say I want health, life, energy but do I really or I am happy in the victim role? why is it so so terrifying???
I will keep looking at the threat of it, feeling so unsafe. I guess the deal was, I don’t matter so let me live and I’ll spend my live saving others and suffering myself, hurting myself?
Love to hear your thoughts on this.
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