012 - Jenny : "I get knocked down, but I get up again."

From not liking the taste of beer to dancing on and crashing through tables at the Union Front Bar to Chumbawamba Jenny's story is a gradual climb from fun to not fun at all.  "I was always more extreme than anyone else."  Eventually the wheels come off and the trail of damage piles up.  Jenny shares her story about how she just stopped fighting, surrendered, learned the right coping mechanisms, and finally learned how to be alone.

I am extremely proud of this episode.  Jenny is a friend of mine and I am honored she put her trust in me.  Thank you Jenny.  Thank you for sharing and I couldn't be happier that I was able to be a part of your journey.

1.  TikTok Light
2.  Menthol cigarettes
3.  P-Funks and Blow
4.  University of Iowa and the Union Bar
5.  Shots of Rumpleminz
6.  Chumbawamba and crashing through tables
7.  Is sharing caring?
8.  Addicts helping other addicts
9.  Failing at recovery and ripping alligator tails
10.  A normal upbringing
11.  Alcohol was my poison 
12.  Are JJ Peppers still around?
13.  "I was always more extreme than everyone else."
14.  Drinking, going out constantly, then a decade pause
15.  Binge drinking and divorce
16.  The wheels come off
17.  "My coping mechanism was off."
18.  New love, new habits, same problems
19.  Blackout wedding
20.  Addiction comparison
21.  Finding new "hot mess" friends
22.  Sober deadlines
23.  Blackout infidelity
24.  "I can't control myself.  I need help"
25.  Morning after pill
26.  I want another beer
27.  Coming clean
28.  Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP)
29.  Rehab was eye-opening
30.  A nerd in the font row
31.  Get a sponsor, go to AA
32.  Prejudged AA
33.  Whole Foods, bright cans, IPAs, and a relapse
34.  Unloading the evidence and Hydroflasks
35.  Relapse guilt and lying
36.  Divorce and DCFS
37.  "I surrender.  I just stopped fighting everything"
38.  Strict sponsor
39.  I was good at lying
40.  Everything and nothing moments
41.  What is it with New York City?
42.  The reasons have to be your own.
43.  "Passed out with my pants down in October in Chicago?"
44.  It's a subtle change, the fight just leaves
45.  Success comes from within
46.  Addicts are stubborn
47.  Two-years later, it's not easy, but things are good
48.  "I'm ok being alone, finally."
49.  Self-care and making yourself a priority
50.  Quieting your mind
51.  Reconnecting with my life.

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