Episode 78: Living through my worst fear and healing my vow of invisibility and not good enoughness

In this week's #MoneyMagic episode, I share my personal experience of overcoming public shaming, reclaiming my power, and healing my not-good-enough wound.

Back in 2022, I found myself in the midst of public shaming. It was a tough time as embassies worldwide were contacted with false allegations of me being a tourism fraud, and financial services boards were sent letters tarnishing my reputation as a scam. The impact on my mental health and business was far more significant than I anticipated.

The aftermath led to months of legal battles, protection orders, and I am still waiting for the court's decision. As if that wasn't enough, I also had to navigate (still am navigating) the complexities of dealing with developers who reneged on their financing contracts in the Property Magicians Stokvel. It has been a challenging time that brought forth self-doubt, feelings of inadequacy, shame and a desire to hide and be invisible.

In the process I found immense support and love from family, friends, and even strangers, which shattered my beliefs about being alone and unloved and led me to truly understanding what it means to trust the process.

In this podcast episode, I delve into the journey of finding solace, seeking support during times of crisis, and prioritizing self-care. I share the practices that helped me regain my balance, including yoga, breathwork, EFT tapping and the #MoneyMagic meditations. 

I also share valuable insights on expansion, visibility, and revisiting the basics of the Bank Account Challenge. Despite the chaos, I managed to continue growing Wealthy Money, secure a publishing deal for my upcoming book (launching in October 2023), acquire two pieces of land, get gifted a Birkin bag, launch an Airbnb business, and initiate the rezoning of one of my properties in Cape Town to develop eight units.

Join me in this episode of the #MoneyMagic podcast as I talk about transforming poison into medicine.

 

Tune in!

During this episode, you will learn about:

00:00:  Introduction

05:37: The public shaming incident and the effects on my life

11:37: Feeling unsafe and the belief that others have power over you

21:52: The experience of shame and the importance of working with triggers

27:31: The not good enough wound and the impact on my business

34:39: The need to regulate the nervous system during challenging times

37:54: Overcoming the vow of invisibility and showing up in my business

44:52: The breakthroughs I experienced during this period

47:14: The upcoming release of my book and the support I received

54:40: My experience with the bank account challenge and its impact on my finances

01:03:38: The material breakthroughs I experienced, such as receiving gifts and purchasing land

01:11:34: Trusting the process

01:16:13: Coaching offer for anyone that feels like doing one on one coaching

 

Notable Quotes 

• I've come to the conclusion that no human being actually has a substantial amount of power over another human being 
• there is a part of us no matter what happens that we can just go in there and find something that can be taken away by another person
• I literally looked at a part of myself like I said and was just like there's no way I could live through this and then making the decision that I'm going to live through this anyway 
• We will never ever be able to control another person that is a fact, but what we can do is look after ourselves when things are going bad 
• Expansion is being able to hold both the good and the bad, the upside and downside of expansion
• One of the biggest breakthroughs was I learned that it doesn't matter what is happening the work works
• The big breakthrough is that all my fears were unfounded I've lived my whole life being so scared of being visible being so scared of being publicly criticized because I thought at the end of the day I would lose love and I would be actually alone and I would have absolutely no one by my side and the major breakthrough for me has been I've lived through my worst fears and I was never alone physically and even emotionally I was fully supported

 

If this podcast resonated with you, check out these resources:

Money Magic course: https://www.wealthy-money.com/moneymagic 

Bank Account Challenge: https://wealthy-money.com/bankaccount 

Book a discovery call: https://www.wealthy-money.com/discoverycall 

7 Day Tapping into Ancestral Money Wisdom Training: https://wealthy-money.com/training 

 

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