Alex-NOVA

Soren Kierkegaard wrote

"The greatest hazard of all, losing oneself, can occur very quietly in the world, as if it were nothing at all. No other loss can occur so quietly, any other loss, an arm, a leg, $5, a wife, et cetera, is sure to be noticed. "

In our day-to-day lives it's very easy to lose ourselves and our sense of self. We are often the last to notice. Alex is a firefighter from a nearby agency and his story is just that losing himself to the job. His story is a familiar one, one wrought  with overtime, an all in culture, a mindset that tells you no one outside the service understands, the morbidity of humor, even a feeling of being better than anyone else, simply because of the work you do. 

It's that slow transition into defining yourself as a firefighter, not as an individual or a human working as a firefighter.

Alex lost a girlfriend, nearly lost an entire set of friends, and more importantly, he lost his sense of self and turned very dark before realizing he had to change. 

Through therapy he's been able to make amends and changes. He's found the outlets necessary in order to not keep the experiences and emotions bottled in. He's found the way to enjoy and live life and not simply be about the barbell and a fire truck.

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