My argument with God. Lord, I saw a pastor who died in the 70’s whom had an encounter with you. You called him a laodicean. Then you showed this Christian pastor that 50 out of 2,000 people made it to heaven during the few minutes he spent in your presence. That’s 1,950 people who were Christian and non Christian who did not make it to heaven. This is absolutely insane. If I am to be afraid of you and your wrath, what kind of Father am I worshipping? Let’s turn the table here. You’re perfect. You’ve always been. You chose to create and with that came chaos. You put us here on a world that forces us to choose evil to eat or good to starve. We are surrounded by demons who hate us. They constantly whisper in our ear to be something we are not. We don’t choose our upbringing yet if I was Hindu, I would burn in hell because I grew up in another belief system. So is it only the lucky who earn your attention? Those born in a judaeo Christian world? What about the natives off the coast of India that never heard of you. The last Christian who tried to preach the gospel died by their spears. Why did you create man if you said you regretted it later by killing them off during the great flood? Why bother using Noah to bring man back only to repeat the same thing? You sent your son to pay the atonement for our sin, yet only 50 made it. What are you looking for? Perfection? Good luck. We were born into corruption by overlords whom control our every thought and rob us of our futures. We can’t see you nor use any of our senses to communicate yet you tell us to have faith that you will take care of us in a fallen world.
I read your word 3 times and even did a deep study. I took two years of Bible college as well. To my best ability, I tried to understand what you wanted from me. But that part I still cannot figure out. I can name millions of things we need from you but all we can understand is you want worship. Tell me, what does that look like to you? Billions of people falling at your feet in shame? If I had billions of children, I wouldn’t want them to sing to me all day long nor put them on a planet with hate at every corner. It’s time I compared your standards to mine. I never asked for this. Even if I did and we made an amnesia agreement, even that seems bizarre and out of touch because I wouldn’t do that to my own children. Your biggest churches on this planet are worshipping your adversary. They have a problem with harming boys. Instead of incarceration, they just place the offender elsewhere to repeat the same atrocities. What’s good is bad and what’s bad is good here. The majority of people here in this earth didn’t ask for this. It’s not like we all wake up and wonder how we are going to hurt you today. Yet, we seem to be treated that according to fire and brimstone teachers. What am I missing?
So what was your blood for if 95% of us are doomed? What does that teach our children when we tell them they have a very low chance of entering your kingdom? By your numbers, most of my loved ones that are gone will be tossed into the fire as useless kindling. You put the worst of mankind as your favorite and look what they have done to your promises? All of those that you praised were liars, thieves, adulterers, murderers and covetous. Most of the evangelicals we see on television are saying you want us to be rich, but we have to give up our savings to do it. Your representatives appear happy and joyous but those that have a lack of knowledge perish. Your son raised the bar on sin. He made it even more impossible to enter your throne room. When before committing adultery was sin and now looming at a woman in lust carries the same punishment. Your answer to us is with you all things are possible. How is that even an answer? Your son spoke to us in parables as if to only give wisdom to those who study. You say to seek first your kingdom and then all these things will be given to us yet we don’t have a starting point. All we have are clues, guesses, faith and broken parts of a story that is impossible for the average person to piece together. The ones that seem to have an understanding handle snakes and dance in bizarre circles making funny noises which puzzles most.
My standards don’t align with your glory. You can’t live in imperfection and what we have learned being on this earth for thousands of years is those that demand perfection lose their minds. Obsessive compulsive disorder is real here and it’s uncomfortable for those that suffer with it. What are we missing? What do we gain by trying to be perfect? If we close ourselves off of humanity and live in the desert away from society and its principles, would that please you? And if not, if we live in society, how are we to continue holding on to our beliefs, faith and hope when everyone around us adapted to the conditioning of you adversary? The mind control programs of the few psychopaths that have all the wealth is impossible to stop. The technology to tap into our thoughts is here and your son is close to coming. What motivation do we have as Christians on earth to lead people to you if you are not interested in the many? Why is the god of the Old Testament angry and the god of the New Testament is happy? You sent your son to be killed by your own creation who took on the sins of the entire world only to close your gate to the majority. Nothing adds up other than a schizophrenic, emotional disregulated obsessive compulsive god who inadvertently created a mess, and the ones who live and breathe here will suffer the consequences of such a terrible idea and decision.
Unless, we were lied to. I feel that theory makes more sense to me as a critical thinker. What if your adversary has completely turned your word upside down and painted a picture of a god that is incapable of nurture. Jeremiah 8:8 says “How do ye say, “We are wise, and the law of the Lord is with us”? Lo, certainly in vain made he it; the pen of the scribes is in vain.” The word that we were preached about for thousands of years has been tainted by the scribes. The translations are wrong and the truth is hidden on purpose by your adversary. That your son’s blood covers all and you give more chances to find you even after death. That you are a good god that is misunderstood on purpose by an angry devil that wants us to suffer his own fate just to spite you. That you can only do so much because of free will and try as hard as you can to reach us when we are down. That you are wise to your law and understand its weaknesses in order to get us out of trouble. That you are holy and outside of us all and want to merge yourself with our spirits when that day comes. Those that chose the easy way to live will get to live with your son when he reigns here for 1,000 years and are educated in the truth. Those that stole, lied and cheated their way through life. That your mercy recognizes all of the problems and will overcome them just as you did when you set the captives in hell free after Jesus’ atonement. There you are. I’m sorry lord, religion got in my way again.
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