Turn Over Every Stone - Search God Inwardly

I used to hear a translation from a pastor and think they are right. Even though my research indicates the opposite. I would assume the person speaking understood the subject better than me. Today, I hear pastors and reject anything that doesn’t line up with my own studies. Is this a milestone or is it heresy? I desperately want to know the truth but I will never get there hearing an opinion and agreeing with it if my spirit doesn’t. Over the last few years, I have veered off the canonical supposed word and have invited different interpretations and meanings to ponder. Not because I am rebelling. It’s because what I read and hear sometimes doesn’t align with the god that I talk to on a daily basis. The Old Testament speaks of an angry god and I used to make justification for his actions without any hesitation. The word is final I thought. It’s the inspiration of god through man’s writings and the closest thing we have to the truth. So why would I dare challenge the word? Well, data doesn’t lie. In all the recordings of the written word, there are variations throughout both old and new that scholars have to pick and choose from as the actual word of god. But this is their opinion and the proof can be overlooked through bias and personal understanding. 

We live in a fallen world and have seen the word change through psychological warfare like the Mandela affect. I remember Nelson Mandela died in prison and I remember the Bible said the lion will lie down with the lamb and not the wolf. But it doesn’t matter if man or the devil has changed time or the word. What matters is we are left with the fact that we cannot trust what man has given us regardless of the hype and trust in ancient scholars to actually do the right thing. All men are liars. Isn’t that what the Bible says? To believe the scholars had not been propagandized, blackmailed or were paid off to write false narratives for the benefit of evil is not logical. This thins the very line of trusting or having faith in god that he made sure man did not twist his word. There are Bible versus about changing God’s word and the consequences but none that say god will allow it or not. God gave us all free will. This means he cannot interfere in our fate. Especially those who do not believe him or his word. A charlatan who is not in sync with god could easily remove or twist the word and one could argue that the Catholic Church did just that when writing the King James Bible. For example, researchers have discovered King James was Masonic and evil. We also know the Catholic Church chose the Alexandria version of the 3 translations which means the New Testament came from Egypt. 

The Dead Sea scrolls doesn’t help us either. None of the New Testament was found there, but it did verify much of the Old Testament as close to the real stories as ever. But that’s the Old Testament. Jesus closed the book on the law of Moses. It’s over and finished. Now, we are left with all kinds of translations and the fact many books were removed for space like the apocrypha. We also know that in the 1800’s many versus were removed from the Bible like Matthew 17:21 where Jesus told the disciples these kinds of demons will not come out unless through prayer and fasting. That’s kind of an important verse don’t you think? Especially when in spiritual warfare. There are several books out there that break down the Mandela effect and how the Bible has been changed. Dozens of versus have supposedly been altered. That doesn’t include the 30,000 changes that has been done to the New Testament which were considered better Greek translations. We know one word can turn a sentence into a different meaning. Why are we putting all our trust and faith in the translations? And we cannot dismiss the telephone game, or also known as Chinese whispers, which proves word of mouth gets embellished. 

I have learned that every man lies or embellishes the truth. As long as man is walking the earth, I will not believe whatever they say or give me. Why? Because the data proves man is infallible and capable of harm for power. If you read first and second kings, only 2 did what was right according to God. And even they were shady and couldn’t resist pressure from false prophets and foreign kings. This means I can’t trust that man has not tainted the very word I am promised is true. This isn’t a rebuke of god. This is a common sense practice in the face of logic. The god I worship wants me to know the truth. He also wants me to find it on my own and not by the hands of any establishment including the church. And today, I have made a decision to not trust any pastor or prophet that I hear. I will not judge. I will not scorn. I will listen and take in what feels right in my bosom and not assume they are more of an expert than myself through my studies. Otherwise, I believe I will be susceptible to wrong doctrine and teaching which will take me off my path and if it is true that Satan dispatches demons to throw us off our walk, then I will now be prepared for it.